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QUESTION: Shannon - I am struggling real bad right now. I want ED back so much. I have been in recovery for a year and 4 months. I am screaming for God to hear me. I just want the pain gone. Please pray for me. So, to help facilitate that, try this for a mental exercise. Sit quietly for a few minutes and imagine exactly what would happen if you indulged your desire to relapse, and began doing it. How would you feel? What would you do first, then next? Follow the path in your mind ALL the way to what you imagine the 'end' would be like. (hint: all ed behaviors ultimately are deadly to the practitioner). Then, do the same exercise, but imagine yourself in detail choosing to stay strong. Imagine all the way to what you envision reaching your destination - strong, sustained recovery - will feel like and bring to you. Vicariously imaging both extremes should bring some relief, and perspective. Ultimately the choice you are struggling with now is none other than the choice to die or live. So of course every bit of you is screaming for your attention - the parts that want to die (which truly do need your attention for healing right now), the parts that don't believe anything worth calling 'life' is possible without the 'right' body shape and size, and the parts that love you unimagineably just as you are and are unbearably sad that you cannot yet feel that worthiness for yourself. Hang in there. Do this exercise every time your ED cravings become unbearably strong. I believe it will be of help - it has been for me. Warmly, Shannon Do you have a related question you would like to submit for future editions of Good News? Would you like to send a message of encouragement and support to the person who asked this question? (NOTE: all messages of support will be received and published anonymously in future editions of Good News) If you would like to submit a question or send a message of support please send it to Shannon c/o Good News HERE |